This Journey of Mine

It’s been a few weeks since I’ve posted-my apologies. Work and life through some curve balls and I’ve resorted to a sort of retreat. But why the topic of this post? The journey to Fit?

I’ve been struggling for some time to get my weight under control and get back to where I once was…not a heaping gluttonous pile of goo. Oh kay, that may be a slight exaggeration but, that’s how I feel as I have managed to achieve the highest weight of my life.

I recently read Fit2Fat2Fit by Drew Manning, who was at the peak of fitness, husband, father, and personal trainer. He embarked on his journey to get fat after struggling to work with a relative who for critical health reasons needed to lose weight. Drew spent six months doing various food challenges gaining over 70 pounds all to then lose it so that he could understand what it’s like for clients that are out of shape and how to better help them.

So here I am. I know how to work out, I know the combinations of cardio and weight lifting and calorie deficits that work for me allow me to lose weight however, I know that I am lacking in several areas:

1. Commitment
2. Consistency
3. Accountability
4. Healthy ways to deal with stress
5. Isolation

I think, at least right now those are the primary areas that challenge me with losing weight and keeping it off. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I eat my emotions—at some point along the way I have decided that eating foods that are shit for me but taste great is how I best process stress. I know this is wrong but as with many things, that’s sometimes easier said than done.

So why now? Is because it’s September first? Because it’s the Last quarter(ish) of the calendar year? Am I trying to beat the New Year’s resolutioners? No…haha…not at all. I have a friend that is graduating in a couple weeks from Officer Training School, and I’m planning to attend her graduation and of course her husband wants to wear “blues.” He sent a text the other day asking me to double check that I have everything and “that they still fit”…I laughed, then I tried them on. Holy Fuck! I’m a fat ass!  Nope they sure don’t fit at all, shirt is too tight and pants I cant even button! So, I’ll have to buy a new pair for this occasion and will definitely look like a slob. But, this I think was the final straw that signaled to me….hey, you fat fuck….It’s time to get your ass in order and start living life and get to where you want to be.

Part of the Fit2Fat2Fit journey was public acknowledgement. So here I am, acknowledging to all of you who may read this that my focus is this:

1. Maintaining a calorie deficit
2. Exercising daily (this on most days means both cardio and weights)
3. Finding better ways to cope with stress
4. Documenting publicly my progress.

I haven’t quite figured out how I’m going to do number four yet. I utilize an array of apps and devices mostly from Garmin (can I get a discount at somepoint) as well as MyNetDiary for food tracking. I would like to have some form of dashboard so that I can add that to my daily posts…I’ll need to tinker some more to see what I can come up with.

So, here we go…